Musing on Waves of Pain and Grief

 

Well, this morning learned of news that put my dad under a new intense wave of grief.  Janie’s beloved bird Vick died. My dad obviously is under a flood of grief and loss and pain.  Sitting hearing and praying this morning God impressed on me to reflect on the waves of pain and grief.  As praying and reflecting on my father’s pain as well as others in grief including: those spending today mourning the loss of David Wilkerson, those touched by the sudden lose of Darren Boogaard (former forward for the Minnesota Wild), a friend whose mother been informed of having breast cancer that spread, and unspoken others in world of pain; that each of us encounters varied waves of pain and grief.  We live in this fallen world. Many days and seasons are calm. Other times, pain and grief is overwhelming. God knows it all.  Yet, God gave us a picture of dealing with the storms and waves.  The pictures is of Jesus sleeping in the boat, at peace and content.  He is asleep for he knows the reality, the waves come and go. Now the disciples were so distraught they demanded Jesus do something, which He did to demonstrate God’s power. The storm and waves were stilled.  God is in control. 

The truth is we live in a world restricted by pain and loss.  It confines us. We have a lot of emotion around the times of pain and loss. In that storm, Jesus did indicate that it is our faith in who God is, our trust that He will see us through. All to often we easily focus on the waves.  In another picture, Peter walked on intense waves when focused on Jesus, and sunk when focused on waves.  So, God gives us an answer when we are overwhelmed and the waves appear to be that which will overwhelm and flood us. When the waters rise, when things seems to be at a point of drowning us, God is there. Cast our eyes to Him and His victory assured by the open grave.  For He is risen.

Storms are but a moment.  Stand firm in faith and endure. Looking to Jesus and looking ahead, to what is yet to come. These waves of pain and grief are but part of the preparation. We are to stand firm and endure in faith.  Pain and grief come but for a moment.  Embrace what God has before us, not to simply endure but to walking in transforming peace and joy that is found in knowledge of who God is and surrender in faith to his working through the waves of pain and grief. Sure, He could command them to stop, but doing so misses part of what God may have in store, for there is blessings and gifts in the waves of pain and grief. Meditate on God’s creation of the pearl. Something precious born out of one creatures initial irritation and pain. Now with those words said, God placed two Psalms on my heart. If you are in pain, please take time to read and thoughtfully meditate on the words and see what God has to say to you on this day while you are going through waves of pain and grief.

 

 

 

Psalms 42

To the choirmaster. A Maskil of the Sons of Korah. As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God.

My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?

My tears have been my food day and night, while they say to me all the day long, “Where is your God?”

These things I remember, as I pour out my soul: how I would go with the throng and lead them in procession to the house of God with glad shouts and songs of praise, a multitude keeping festival.

Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God;

for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God. My soul is cast down within me; therefore I remember you from thelandofJordanand of Hermon, fromMountMizar.

Deep calls to deep at the roar of your waterfalls; all your breakers and your waves have gone over me.

By day the LORD commands his steadfast love, and at night his song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life.

I say to God, my rock: “Why have you forgotten me? Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?”

As with a deadly wound in my bones, my adversaries taunt me, while they say to me all the day long, “Where is your God?”

Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.

 

Psalms 69

To the choirmaster: according to Lilies. Of David. Save me, O God! For the waters have come up to my neck.

I sink in deep mire, where there is no foothold; I have come into deep waters, and the flood sweeps over me.

I am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my God.

More in number than the hairs of my head are those who hate me without cause; mighty are those who would destroy me, those who attack me with lies. What I did not steal must I now restore?

O God, you know my folly; the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you.

Let not those who hope in you be put to shame through me, O Lord GOD of hosts; let not those who seek you be brought to dishonor through me, O God of Israel.

For it is for your sake that I have borne reproach, that dishonor has covered my face.

I have become a stranger to my brothers, an alien to my mother’s sons.

For zeal for your house has consumed me, and the reproaches of those who reproach you have fallen on me.

When I wept and humbled my soul with fasting, it became my reproach.

When I made sackcloth my clothing, I became a byword to them.

I am the talk of those who sit in the gate, and the drunkards make songs about me.

But as for me, my prayer is to you, O LORD. At an acceptable time, O God, in the abundance of your steadfast love answer me in your saving faithfulness.

Deliver me from sinking in the mire; let me be delivered from my enemies and from the deep waters.

Let not the flood sweep over me, or the deep swallow me up, or the pit close its mouth over me.

Answer me, O LORD, for your steadfast love is good; according to your abundant mercy, turn to me.

Hide not your face from your servant; for I am in distress; make haste to answer me.

Draw near to my soul, redeem me; ransom me because of my enemies!

You know my reproach, and my shame and my dishonor; my foes are all known to you.

Reproaches have broken my heart, so that I am in despair. I looked for pity, but there was none, and for comforters, but I found none.

They gave me poison for food, and for my thirst they gave me sour wine to drink.

Let their own table before them become a snare; and when they are at peace, let it become a trap.

Let their eyes be darkened, so that they cannot see, and make their loins tremble continually.

Pour out your indignation upon them, and let your burning anger overtake them.

May their camp be a desolation; let no one dwell in their tents.

For they persecute him whom you have struck down, and they recount the pain of those you have wounded.

Add to them punishment upon punishment; may they have no acquittal from you.

Let them be blotted out of the book of the living; let them not be enrolled among the righteous.

But I am afflicted and in pain; let your salvation, O God, set me on high!

I will praise the name of God with a song; I will magnify him with thanksgiving.

This will please the LORD more than an ox or a bull with horns and hoofs.

When the humble see it they will be glad; you who seek God, let your hearts revive.

For the LORD hears the needy and does not despise his own people who are prisoners.

Let heaven and earth praise him, the seas and everything that moves in them.

For God will saveZionand build up the cities of Judah, and people shall dwell there and possess it; the offspring of his servants shall inherit it, and those who love his name shall dwell in it.

Joy Comes in the Mourning

In Remembrance: Sharing of Memories related to Janie Blake

My thoughts have been many since Janie Blake started her new day and left us behind. It has been hard to focus and write anything, yet there is much to write and process. It is though time to start putting down words that are on my heart. The best place to start is sharing a bit of the impact that Janie Blake had on my life and in the life of others. Yet, for me the sharing of the memories that is the story of Janie Blake and how she touched my life is not easy. See, Janie Blake in my life from the start is a mix of pain and hurt along with blessing and healing. The two really go hand in hand and are hard to separate. The elements of pain are not appropriate to write about as there are other people involved and they need to be considered and honored. So, my sharing of memories publicly is limited. However, the limit is on me being able to share the fact that God did use her in people’s lives to build them up and help them grow in love and truth by sharing love and truth.

Ultimately, the core of my relationship with Janie Blake can be summed up as a mutual sharing of love and truth. No matter what was going on with each of us being who we are, there was love and truth in operation. And honestly, most of the time, most of the memories are just us being who we are, together. This was whether sharing meals, playing games, or just having conversation. There are stark differences in our personality despite sharing that core of interacting in truth and love. Her personality was more active. She would find a way to be involved. She had to be part of the “action.” If there was something going on, rest assured Janie wanted to be a part of it. Now, my personality is one that is more observant, watchful. I want to be where action is but will often be at the edge, watching what is going on, always looking to grow and understand. Recently saw a picture from during my sophomore year on college, it was me as always on the edge, watching & observing. My nature is to meet people where they are and come along side.

Janie’s nature is that of going after someone and pulls them in. It is because of Janie that have met and cared for several people that otherwise would not have. It is even in her active pursuit that the healing, blessing, and growth that occurred in time, happened. She actively pursued with love and grace. Part of the healing pertains to my dear wife. We had a period where she ran from God in response to deep pain and disappointment. One related to a young man dying of brain cancer, the other a disappointment over a hope for job situation. Janie loved her, spoke truth, and pursued her with not knowing anything more than my wife was hurting and angry. She provided an accurate reflection of God’s pursuit, for ultimately God pursued my wife through Janie and others until she returned back to God. Janie was consistent in her pursuit and building up of others, reaching out with love and truth. She was faithful to God’s call on her life and produced much fruit. She lived who she was before God and man. She let her light shine in her actions and deeds and brought Glory to God the Father.

I hope folks take the time to share memories of Janie there are many places to do so. There is the comments section here on this blog article. There is here Facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/profile.php?id=828554733. There is my father’s Facebook page as well: http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/profile.php?id=1128826601. There is also Janie Blake’s caring bridge site: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/janieblake. There is also the option to share thoughts at the online obituary at: http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/startribune/obituary.aspx?page=lifestory&pid=147504299. You also may have own resources, but please do share. I may add folks thoughts to comment sections as run across, so please subscribe to the comments in this article. I know there are many folks who have prayed for Janie and did not know her, by sharing others can know and the harvest and impact will continue.

Late Night Musing Related to Care and Concern for Bill and Janie Blake

Well tonight I am writing because I know not what else to do.  I was set to head to bed to sleep and plugged my phone in to charge when saw a text from my father. The text indicated Janie Blake had less energy today and that to him it seemed that the Janie that we have all come to love is slowly slipping away. Turning to God in prayer with no real words all I sense is pain. It hurts.  Questions fill my mind as my heart reels with the pain.  What is occurring that brings this point forward? Is this a point to the death? Is that what this pain is?  Does God still hold her with life left. When the battle was engaged a few years back leading to her appearing cancer fear over a year ago Janie reported receiving a promise or word that it was not to death so did something change?  I do not have an answer to the question. Only the response of pain.  So here I sit and write. I did dig out notes and an article someone sent me in the mail, looking to see if God had an answer for me. The notes discuss the nature of cancer. Cancer being a twisting of natural DNA so that they no longer are fulfilling their God given roles and have gone rogue or independent. The articles go on to discuss the nature of transcription errors and the God design of apoptosis. This is what most cells do when damaged. Cancer are cells that have failed to do so, pretend to be something they are not, take over, and steal nutrients.  Now there are nutrients that can possibly aid and help defeat cancer such as Tumeric, Green Tea, elderberry, ellagic acid, skullcap, Vitamins D3 and A, and Broccoli with “Indole 3-Carbinol.”  Now I don’t know what nutrients Janie is taking. I know she is aware of tumeric.  I know that whether she takes the nutrients or not whether she lives or dies is in God’s hands. Yet, there may be things that need to occur to allow God to move.  Actually, there is one word that comes to me in the midst of all the pain and that is surrender.  Of course surrender to their proper place and role is what cancer cells do not do. I don’t know what that word means to Dad and Janie.  All I know is God calls each of us to surrender, of walking in accordance with God’s will and not walking in accordance with our own.  I do not know God’s will here.  I know that God will keep his promise, but we always need to submit or like cancer we are going rogue and wild.  Yet God has given us this verse in Romans 8:13 (ESV) For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. Now I do not know if that is a specific word but felt led to Romans 8 and that verse stood out to me given the nature of cancer and the way cancer will be undone through the activation of apoptosis.  So even taking the proper nutrients, if done in flesh will be of no avail. This again leads to the importance of surrender to God. And ultimately the battle belongs to the Lord. If Janie is to live or die at this time it is in God’s hands. She is currently described as slipping away and it is difficult to see beyond the now. But God is in sole control and always as Paul wrote, “To live is Christ, to die is gain.”   All of us are to walk in surrender to Him.  Like the cells in our body we are all exposed to things that damage us daily.  Each of us in a moment can suffer great illness or injury.  We need to walk in surrender to the King of Kings no matter what the cause.  If we walk in surrender to God and equipping ourselves with His armour, the battle is His, and His alone. We just need to walk in obedience in truth and love even when it appears that our hopes and dreams and desires are shattered. Maybe they were only our own flesh to begin with and God has something else in store. Maybe it is all the process of being sanctified and refined in trials of this life.  I don’t know, but I know God is with us every step of the way. God feels our pain. The empathy and overwhelming sadness I feel is felt in whole by God.  As my most recent musing discusses in part, God’s empathy is a reason he cannot tolerate sin, for it hurts him, and the closer He is to sin the more the pain.  Some other articles make similar points Does God Feel our Pain and Empathy and New Testament.   Well I think I am done rambling but hopefully there are thoughts here that build up and encourage.  Perhaps now God will allow sleep. For right now the path my Dad and Janie on is tough and filled with pain. Yet, in Jesus and Him alone is life. In Him alone through the cross is any healing. It is His stripes and His suffering that will make all things right it is just a matter of when, but all who are in His Kingdom are in the process.  In Him alone is life, and the life is everlasting and not of this world.   So to close this off these are the words that come to my mind:  Verily, verily all life is in the Son, the walking embodiment of God’s divine empathy. The great physician.  The seal of that life is the Holy Spirit, the great comforter, the counselor, the one who leads us to His restoration.  Walk in His ways, not our ways.  Follow His steps.  He alone makes the twisted straight. His word gives light to the path through the darkness. Whatever is, is!  For all that is comes from God the Father who we can approach by the gift of Jesus our Messiah and we are guided to the the right way and empowered to walk in it by the Holy Spirit.  So submit therefore to the Godhead for there is no other way.  AMEN!

Prayer Request Update: Janie Blake

Well, a couple weeks ago shared the difficult news of Janie Blake retaking up a battle with Cancer. Just wanted to give update of where things are at. After the initial report of the return of cancer cells Janie was giving difficult prognosis. She was informed that she was likely to have “months” to live versus years. It as a pronouncement that was difficult and painful. One filled with grief and despair. My first thoughts came to recalling dogs that my mother has had that have had “short lives” pronounced over them only to live a good long life. Yet, on the other hand there are dogs who did live short lives. The point though is that for each of us, animals or human, it is not up anyone to make “proclamations” over life, as that is in God’s control, ALWAYS.

It is noteworthy that whatever happens with Janie Blake at this point, it is whatever is God’s intent. Janie is not taking any further course of the human generated courses of treatment. Whether the cancers cells grow and consume her life, or turn back on self and implode is in God’s hand. It is one or other. Either Janie will live and serve God in this life or will reach a point of no further suffering and graduate on.

Today, she goes to the doctor, the one making these proclamations and will hear the pain and suffering she will endure of the cancer cells continue to grow and consume. It is a difficult thing to go and hear what suffering may come, what to expect. Yet, ultimately, we all know that whatever is ahead, God is in control. No one else. It is God’s will, not our own. God will make his will clear, in time. All I know that whether life or death is what is to come for Janie Blake, that He who promised is faithful. If ongoing time in this life of suffering is necessary for God to keep His promises, that is what will occur. If God is brought greater glory by His promises being met by her graduation from this life, then this is what will occur. But we can rest in He who promised is faithful. So I ask for prayer that for each person who cares for and knows Janie to be given open eyes and ears to see God’s faithfulness in whatever suffering they encounter. May each encounter be filled with a touch of God’s peace. For ultimately it is not our will, but God’s will that will rule the day. No one can make any proclamation otherwise.

Musings on Cures for Suffering

Suffering is awful. I see suffering every day. There are many diseases and global problems that really seem to be giants and the world would be better off if we had a solution to them and that suffering eradicated. Yet, it is worth noting that Jesus once stated, “the poor will always be with us.” (Matthew 26:11) The fact is suffering exists because of the sin of man. The first sin resulted in the twisting of all creation the proper order was displaced. Therefore, suffering is ongoing. Today thought about things such as praying that humanity develops a cure for cancer and other such issues. The reality is once one disease and suffering defeated, there is always something more discoveries. It is an ongoing process; it is death released by the separating from God and emphasizing self. There is only one answer to suffering, and that is the Kingdom of God. That Kingdom is not about removal of suffering in this life, but rather being content, at peace, and whole. Ultimately, all suffering has been defeated at the cross. There will be an end to suffering and it comes at the cross. It comes in what is yet ahead. The return of Jesus will lead to the final defeat of the tyranny of suffering.

Now, it is very easy to say that but for those in the midst of suffering, it may seem shallow. Yet, the only true hope is hope placed in God and a reconciled relationship with the creator. The answer to personal suffering is recognition of God’s love for us and following his ways. Such a mindset does not alter the circumstances of situations of suffering rather it changes our perspective. Then when in right relationship with God and showing genuine response, we can reach out to those suffering in love, even at times meeting needs and touching those who are suffering. Ultimately, we are all suffering, every one of us. Our suffering diminishes with love. Only God’s love truly touches the deepest levels of suffering. The only real cure is to suffering is the return of Jesus which will restore all things from their twisted, decaying state and bring true wholeness. Therefore, there is a true cure for suffering. All suffering will end. It comes at the end of this world, when all the sources of evil and suffering are defeated. In the meantime, we have the ebbs and flows of life filled with trials and difficulties. Suffering is a cruel master and the world is in its grip. Yet, it is a defeated master whose time will come. All suffering only lasts a season.

2010 Objectives and Prayer Requests

The purpose of this article is really to put down the things that God is doing in my life and the areas where hope for blessing and productivity. In this article, first I will list me objectives and desires for 2010 and then a list of general prayer requests. Feel free to contact me personally if you want any further details.

        Objectives:

Grow in my relationship with God and show love that is more complete.

Follow Gods leading over my own ideas, wants, or desires.

Be intentional in actions and choices.

Grow in showing, speaking, and reflecting God’s love in relationships around me.

Be productive at current employers. I am working for two employers, one doing crisis evaluations at a local hospital. The second is providing counseling/psychotherapy services at a local clinic. These employers provide a sound base and I want to do my best to glorify God at the places where I work.

Establish private practice. This is a key goal for the year ahead. It requires lots of steps and investment in time and money. It is one thing that really is at a beginning.

Find ways to serve God in the church congregation he has placed me. My heart right now is to be involved in some way or fashion with Men’s ministry. Currently waiting as the church and pastor know my desire to be involved in some way.

Write more intentionally and with greater consistency.

Completed planned article series such as Foundations of Strong Delusion.

In God’s time, work on becoming a father with wife.

               Prayer requests:

Brother and his family: Pray for strength, comfort, and healing. They have undergone a long ordeal of loving and caring for someone who is dying, Nancy Kimmey. The trial the have gone through during this time has been extremely difficult on them all. Pray for a sense of God’s peace during the time and that they come through the ordeal ultimately stronger and that their mourning does turn to dancing as the ordeal brings them a taste of the Joy of the Lord.

Mother: As posted on the blog before she has encountered vision lost and diagnosed with rod dysphasia. She is moving in to a new time of life. She is a strong, independent woman who know has to increasingly depend on others. Pray that she grows in being able to reflect God’s love to those that assist her. Pray that her eyes, ears, and heart be opened to see in new ways God’s glory and find ways transcending beyond self to communicate and give voice to what God stirs.

Father: Pray he gains sense of God’s leading and direction. Pray for strength and faithfulness in following God’s lead beyond own ideas of what God is leading. Pray for God ordained appointments while waiting on God’s move and direction. Pray for God’s directions to be clear and that of self to become small. Pray for provision to do what God calls and directs.

Step-mother: Pray same as above but in addition continued strength in battle. She had a victory over cancer, yet the battle continues as she has three lesions in her brain and will need further prayer. Pray for discernment and for any root cause of the cancer to be dealt with and disabled in prayer.

Step-brother Tim: He has been serving God in mission field. Pray for His service to be rewarded with fruit, whether he sees fruit or not. Pray for Him to be further built up, rooted in God’s love, and able to share God’s love with others. He is leaving on January 12th for a 2 month stay in Mexico helping build a church. He will return to North Pole, Alaska to serve an outreach radio station.

Wife: Pray for God to continue to work in her life with restoration and healing. She is working on losing weight, a difficult battle with medical conditions that complicate. Pray for strength to continue to fight the battle. She desires that we try and have a baby before the year is out, so pray for God’s will and leading on that front in His time. Pray for strength, as she is often tired. Pray for her to find joy at work, as the job is tough for her and stressful. As she is at work, pray for God’s light and fragrance be evident to all around her.

Mother-in-law: Pray for her to grow deeper with God. For her wounds to be filled with God’s love. Pray for her to be filled to the brim with God’s love to touch those around her with love both in terms of family and those around her in Maceio

Father-in-law: Pray for God to touch his heart as he serves and loves others. Pray for God to touch whatever wounds are within his heart and to see fully God at work in those around him.

Brother-in-law Lon and his family: Pray for strength, wisdom, and guidance. He is pasturing a church in Maceio, Brazil. He is pulled in many directions and the church needs to move from dependence on Him and grow in dependence on God. Pray for all of His family to grow in loving God and others. Pray that the pull and desires of self and world diminish and appetites for the Kingdom of God grow.

Brother-in-law Leo and his family. Leo is not following God and walking in the darkness. He is ruled by lusts and pride. Pray for God to send the Holy Spirit to convict and draw him to repentance. Pray for his wife and daughters, that in the pain and heartache of betrayal that they get drawn into deep relationship with God and his love. Pray for their wounds to be healed and for their hearts to be touched with the love of God.

Other family members and friends: Pray for God to move and touch them where they are, in their pains, struggles, joys, and journey of life. Pray for God’s love to be made clear and deeper in all, whether they know God or chosen to walk away from God.

Pastor Brian Sinclair: Pray for wisdom and strength to lead New Joy Church with the vision of God. Build him up with words that build up the congregation in the faith. Pray for protection for Him and His family related to the wiles of the enemy.

New Joy Church: Pray that ultimately God brings a work that frees His New Joy amidst the congregation as the church becomes further rooted in the truth of God’s word and obedient to His call. Pray for wisdom, clarity, and vision for what God has ahead. May ideas of self be clear and reduced and may we all hear and see what God is directing.

Steiger International: Pray for God to continue to use them to reach those in the darkest places of the world with the Gospel. Pray for protection, wisdom, guidance, and provision.

The Livesay’s and Heartline Ministries Hati: Pray for God to continue to reach others with God’s love in gospel in that poor and hurting country. Pray for provision, wisdom, guidance, and protection.

The Hensel’s: Pray for God to grow the new Ministry and to touch the lives of the people where they are serving. Pray that they are able to help build others in the faith and draw others unto salvation.

The Gross family: Pray for God to bless them as they serve God. Pray for healing, strength, and renewal.

Simeon’s Cry: Pray that God uses them mightly to reach Jews and Muslims for Jesus. Pray for wisdom and open eyes and hears to see and hear what needs to be seen and heard. Pray for continued and ongoing discernment.

Pray for the Peace of Jerusalem: Pray that those of the nation of Israel grow in awareness of the Gospel and be brought to true wholeness as the recognize Yeshua as Mashiach.

Pray for Missionaries the world over, that they are able to draw others to turn from self to God and bring in a fruitful harvest.

And the requests for self: Pray for wisdom and guidance. Pray for ongoing growth in voice. Pray for growth in intentionality and consistency. Pray for God to draw those that he wants to use me in their lives to draw them into greater peace, learn of God’s peace, and receive restoration of heart and soul. Pray that I grow in loving God and others deeply. Pray for the blog and forum, that is serves to build others up, spread the light of the Gospel, and as led expose the workings of darkness.

    Prayer for 2010

Lord Heavenly Father, you who are the beginning of all things, you who set all things in motion. Touch the lives of all who read this that they may grow in knowledge of you. May each person who reads this blog grow in his or her response to you. May their walking in love of God and others be deeper and clearer. Open the eyes, ears and hearts to greater knowledge of Your love and your ways. Bring people into a greater sense of Your Peace and Joy. Heal the wounds of the broken, set the captives free, bring restoration to those in need. Transform each of our lives to reflect you greater. Bring us into greater awareness of our own sins and selfishness and help us to walk in repentance. Make clear to each one of us the areas of refinement you are leading in for this year ahead. Bring forth fruit as people serve you in love. Bring wisdom and discernment. Open eyes and ears of each to the ways accepted or walked in not of you. Expose the deceptions that have been embraced and the roots of the deception. Build each of us up in You. May your Kingdom grow and expand and be more visible to each of us. Help us to forgive as You call us to forgive. Help us to love as You call us to love. Bring the prosperity of further knowledge of your love and pushing forward in your ways grow with eyes toward treasures in heaven and not on the ways of the world. Thank you for the provisions that will come in the year ahead. Give each person the wisdom needed to make the choices as they come. Give strength, peace, and comfort in suffering. Give light and hope in darkness. Give clarity in fog. Give strength and direction in waiting. Pour out your love and light as all who serve you. Build what you have established, break down all that is not of you. Bring forth your harvest and fruit. Lead us in the sure path and sure ways and help us to return when we stray from your path. We thank you Father for all that you have done, for your gift of Salvation through Jesus, our messiah. Thank you for the gift of the Holy Spirit and the ability to draw near to you, as you are on the throne. Thank you Jesus for Your love and mediating before the throne on our behalf. Thank you Holy Spirit for your ongoing presence even if at times we are muted in awareness of Your presence. We look forward to all that is ahead in 2010 and we thank you for what you have worked in our lives up to today. Above all, may Your will be done in our lives here on earth, as we seek to serve your Kingdom. All glory to your name. Your will be done. Amen!

Musings on the life and death of Farrah Fawcett

The 10 comes to her end.

The "10" comes to her end.

 

Yesterday also brought the death of Farrah Fawcett. She again was a well known celebrity whose career came to prominence in the late 1970’s.  She is best known for her role in the television series Charlies Angels and for the movie 10.  At that time she was known as the standard for beauty.  She was the woman other woman wanted to be like and the men wanted to be with. 

After her time in the spotlight faded she later became known for some serious roles proving their was more to her then a woman with a beautiful body. She starred in movies such as The Burning Bed and the Apostle that received critical acclaim.  She is a woman whose name is mentioned most in this country have a memory. 

A cursory examination of her life shows she struggled in relationships. She had two failed marriages, one with Lee Majors, and the other to Ryan O’Neal.  Ryan clearly never stopped loving her, even if they could not be together.

The end of her life really was about the battle with cancer.  She left no stone un-turned in trying to defeat the disease. And cancer is an insidious disease that destroys living tissue and spreads.  Farrah was no different than any of us in her desire to prolong life.  She had hopes, dreams, and plans for her life.  Yet, she ultimately lost the battle with cancer.  Recently my step-mother won her battle with cancer with God’s help. I have seen my brother’s mother-in-law wind up on the losing end of the battle. It is a sad disease that took the life of Farrah Fawcett and one that causes much suffering.

Now in terms of thinking what to post regarding Farrah Fawcett the internet was searched to gain some sense of what she believed.  It seems she was raised a Catholic and had been observed engaging in Catholic type prayers when getting treatment in Germany.  Now granted, this is specualation but in her battle she did appear to turn to God, but she may have only turned to a religion.   When facing a battle and struggle with any type of suffering it is not uncommon for people to become religious, many in fact truely turn to God.  Only Farrah and God know what her relationship was and if she turned to Jesus in surrender and entered the true peace that is found in letting Jesus pay for our selfish ways. 

The question to examine is when searching for answers and truth and hope in the midst of suffering, is the search simply one that is something to alleviate suffering or is it finding truth and real peace in the  midst of the suffering.   Farrah had a tough battle, and I hope and pray she found true peace and sad over the prospects that she did not.  It would be grievous that she simply turned to religious practice in order to have some hope and yet missed what it is to be right with the Creator. 

Now, sure the reader may sit and think that a loving God would not allow suffering in the first place.  At some point on this blog the issue of suffering will be examined in further detail, but the simple answer is all suffering came as a result of turning away from the creator. All of creation suffers because of the sin of humanity.  A time is coming when all will be restored but there will be much more suffering both as a result of sin and the consequences for rejection of God. 

So take time to reflect on the woman of beauty who suffered so greatly.  How would you face suffering?  Would you look to find the peace of God, or simply fight to survive using whatever means you can, including assorted religious practices?   The only true healing is found at the cross of Golgotha where the lamb of God, Jesus the Messiah, dies so that all can be restored.  The restortation comes one person at a time.  Each person who agrees to let Jesus cover the consequences of their selfishness and surrender to him is one more that is set right.  Suffering comes and goes. Life is but a vapor and tomorrow we can be gone.  Today is the day to examine and settle where you stand before the Creator.  If you turn to Jesus it should not be about anything other then surrender of self to be right before a God who accepts you and loves you beyond imagination.  Loves so much that suffered far worse then any suffering produced by cancer and chemotherapy.   Times grows ever shorter, think today who you will serve.  Because as Bob Dylan once croo0ned “You gotta serve somebody.”