Personal Musing: What we have here is a failure of engagement blamed on a little thing: A virus


Yes, there has been a lack of fresh content on here for some time. It is a failure and wrongdoing on my part. My apologies for that, it has not been what God desires, rather it comes from letting self settle back and not engage in things I need to engage in doing. There of course are reasons for the inaction but still not what God was leading. Now that being said, the biggest reason in the lack of engagement and new writing is this writer has been sick. Either there has been one ongoing long-standing virus or there have been several back to back. So, I got sick. Still, could have engaged in even simple small posting and the re-engaging has been slow going for me as getting healthier. The main point in lesson, is the small things every day matter. It is real easy to get wrapped up in self and pull back, disengage, or not even think about others. Now, there are things, be they ever so small that have profound impact. One simple virus can cause a man to feel ill and to be fighting energy and motivation on an ongoing basis. Small things can lead to choices. Just one more day; do it tomorrow; wait till feeling better; and other rationalizations to failing to engage. See we all need to be obedient, even when we do not feel like it. Things are tough. We focus on self and own comfort or we sit back. Now all that being said, God does have us take times of rest, but sometimes we stay at rest when need to be moving forward and engaging. So, am taking steps to move forward. There are things that need to be done, words need to be written, people need to be reached and help. If do not engage and move forward and get done what needs to get done, it is to my loss. So need to engage the forward movement as God brings changes and pressures around to push and nudge toward changing and engaging. It is a difficult thing and uncomfortable when folks ask what have done to move forward, and you know you have not been doing all you can be doing or should be doing. Well, I need to engage, need to move forward whether I feel the energy or not. Here is a truth, when move past the barriers of self, and do what God is directing, there is joy and freedom from obedience. When there is lack of obedience, there is a drain and we can even be interfering with God is seeking to do. So, the past couple months this one man has had a virus, but there are deeper issues and selfishness and a failure to obey. So I need to take steps of obedience and will see what God will do.

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2 Responses

  1. Enjoy the blog and writing. If you are not finding joy in doing so, then move on from it.
    That is what obedience is, doing something from the heart- not a means of obligation for God’s approval or disapproval.
    The way God views you is that if you write the blog or do not write the blog- His love has not changed for you. You cannot diminish it by what you do, or increase it by what you do.

  2. Ah, but see it is not that there is no joy, no desire to do it. It is the rub, there is good want to do, but there are personal barriers that easily get blamed on a little thing like a virus. There are plenty of thoughts unsaid. Plenty of articles stalled.

    And yes, God’s love doesn’t change. Yet, my obdience or lack there of can hold back or limit or keep me from something God may intend. There are things need to be doing to move forward. Not just writing. That is just a small piece.

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