Late Night Musing Related to Care and Concern for Bill and Janie Blake

Well tonight I am writing because I know not what else to do.  I was set to head to bed to sleep and plugged my phone in to charge when saw a text from my father. The text indicated Janie Blake had less energy today and that to him it seemed that the Janie that we have all come to love is slowly slipping away. Turning to God in prayer with no real words all I sense is pain. It hurts.  Questions fill my mind as my heart reels with the pain.  What is occurring that brings this point forward? Is this a point to the death? Is that what this pain is?  Does God still hold her with life left. When the battle was engaged a few years back leading to her appearing cancer fear over a year ago Janie reported receiving a promise or word that it was not to death so did something change?  I do not have an answer to the question. Only the response of pain.  So here I sit and write. I did dig out notes and an article someone sent me in the mail, looking to see if God had an answer for me. The notes discuss the nature of cancer. Cancer being a twisting of natural DNA so that they no longer are fulfilling their God given roles and have gone rogue or independent. The articles go on to discuss the nature of transcription errors and the God design of apoptosis. This is what most cells do when damaged. Cancer are cells that have failed to do so, pretend to be something they are not, take over, and steal nutrients.  Now there are nutrients that can possibly aid and help defeat cancer such as Tumeric, Green Tea, elderberry, ellagic acid, skullcap, Vitamins D3 and A, and Broccoli with “Indole 3-Carbinol.”  Now I don’t know what nutrients Janie is taking. I know she is aware of tumeric.  I know that whether she takes the nutrients or not whether she lives or dies is in God’s hands. Yet, there may be things that need to occur to allow God to move.  Actually, there is one word that comes to me in the midst of all the pain and that is surrender.  Of course surrender to their proper place and role is what cancer cells do not do. I don’t know what that word means to Dad and Janie.  All I know is God calls each of us to surrender, of walking in accordance with God’s will and not walking in accordance with our own.  I do not know God’s will here.  I know that God will keep his promise, but we always need to submit or like cancer we are going rogue and wild.  Yet God has given us this verse in Romans 8:13 (ESV) For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. Now I do not know if that is a specific word but felt led to Romans 8 and that verse stood out to me given the nature of cancer and the way cancer will be undone through the activation of apoptosis.  So even taking the proper nutrients, if done in flesh will be of no avail. This again leads to the importance of surrender to God. And ultimately the battle belongs to the Lord. If Janie is to live or die at this time it is in God’s hands. She is currently described as slipping away and it is difficult to see beyond the now. But God is in sole control and always as Paul wrote, “To live is Christ, to die is gain.”   All of us are to walk in surrender to Him.  Like the cells in our body we are all exposed to things that damage us daily.  Each of us in a moment can suffer great illness or injury.  We need to walk in surrender to the King of Kings no matter what the cause.  If we walk in surrender to God and equipping ourselves with His armour, the battle is His, and His alone. We just need to walk in obedience in truth and love even when it appears that our hopes and dreams and desires are shattered. Maybe they were only our own flesh to begin with and God has something else in store. Maybe it is all the process of being sanctified and refined in trials of this life.  I don’t know, but I know God is with us every step of the way. God feels our pain. The empathy and overwhelming sadness I feel is felt in whole by God.  As my most recent musing discusses in part, God’s empathy is a reason he cannot tolerate sin, for it hurts him, and the closer He is to sin the more the pain.  Some other articles make similar points Does God Feel our Pain and Empathy and New Testament.   Well I think I am done rambling but hopefully there are thoughts here that build up and encourage.  Perhaps now God will allow sleep. For right now the path my Dad and Janie on is tough and filled with pain. Yet, in Jesus and Him alone is life. In Him alone through the cross is any healing. It is His stripes and His suffering that will make all things right it is just a matter of when, but all who are in His Kingdom are in the process.  In Him alone is life, and the life is everlasting and not of this world.   So to close this off these are the words that come to my mind:  Verily, verily all life is in the Son, the walking embodiment of God’s divine empathy. The great physician.  The seal of that life is the Holy Spirit, the great comforter, the counselor, the one who leads us to His restoration.  Walk in His ways, not our ways.  Follow His steps.  He alone makes the twisted straight. His word gives light to the path through the darkness. Whatever is, is!  For all that is comes from God the Father who we can approach by the gift of Jesus our Messiah and we are guided to the the right way and empowered to walk in it by the Holy Spirit.  So submit therefore to the Godhead for there is no other way.  AMEN!


4 Responses

  1. Dear Peacebringer,
    I understand much of what you’re going through. I recently lost my Mum to cancer, and she had been given a great prognosis of ‘no evidence of disease’ only months before. She had given her testimony of God’s healing, and blessed all who heard her. She was an amazing lady with SO much more to do here before the Lord called her home. Her six daughters are devastated, especially after losing Dad to cancer 34 years ago. However, as I said to my Mum when she was struggling with the question of ‘why now?’, there are many unsaved people, friends and family, who were affected by her loss…those who witnessed how she lived, and were to witness how she died. She was ready, spiritually speaking, and they are not. There are already things happening now which may not have come to be, if she were here. God is the Author, He wrote the script, we can stray from our lines maybe, but He controls the final curtain. We should follow His cues, because He knows how the story ends. He’s the Alpha and Omega! I will be praying for Janie…I know He is able, but even if He doesn’t….we worship Him. God bless you.

  2. Tim, it’s all in His perfect timing..Why or when are human questions, but as long as we pray that HIS perfect Will be done, then it will…As you know, He knows the end from the beginning, and even though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, HE is right there, guiding us through.

    Pain is pain, and we all go through it…natural process for humans. I pray that the Father’s perfect will be done now, for Janie..that HE might spare her any further sufferings, should He choose not to heal her. We do know one thing, we she crosses over to be with the Lord, she will be healed.

    God bless you, dear brother..I will keep you all in my prayers.

  3. Cherly yes, I am aware of all this, at least in my head. Here is one thing I am not sure of, if the answer and God’s will is to take her home, would I have the overwhelming pain response…perhaps as God is teaching through this. See this response is in start contrast to a kid at our church who had brain cancer and wife had seen image of him happy, free and with no cancer. She did not realize it meant God taking him where pain free. I never felt this about that kid either. Again, only God knows his intent and purpose and I do believe the verse highlighted here is key. I cannot speak to application only what it says related to us and God.

  4. I just wanted to say I care, and I wish I had wiser, better words than that. *hug*…

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