Personal Musing: What we have here is a failure of engagement blamed on a little thing: A virus

Yes, there has been a lack of fresh content on here for some time. It is a failure and wrongdoing on my part. My apologies for that, it has not been what God desires, rather it comes from letting self settle back and not engage in things I need to engage in doing. There of course are reasons for the inaction but still not what God was leading. Now that being said, the biggest reason in the lack of engagement and new writing is this writer has been sick. Either there has been one ongoing long-standing virus or there have been several back to back. So, I got sick. Still, could have engaged in even simple small posting and the re-engaging has been slow going for me as getting healthier. The main point in lesson, is the small things every day matter. It is real easy to get wrapped up in self and pull back, disengage, or not even think about others. Now, there are things, be they ever so small that have profound impact. One simple virus can cause a man to feel ill and to be fighting energy and motivation on an ongoing basis. Small things can lead to choices. Just one more day; do it tomorrow; wait till feeling better; and other rationalizations to failing to engage. See we all need to be obedient, even when we do not feel like it. Things are tough. We focus on self and own comfort or we sit back. Now all that being said, God does have us take times of rest, but sometimes we stay at rest when need to be moving forward and engaging. So, am taking steps to move forward. There are things that need to be done, words need to be written, people need to be reached and help. If do not engage and move forward and get done what needs to get done, it is to my loss. So need to engage the forward movement as God brings changes and pressures around to push and nudge toward changing and engaging. It is a difficult thing and uncomfortable when folks ask what have done to move forward, and you know you have not been doing all you can be doing or should be doing. Well, I need to engage, need to move forward whether I feel the energy or not. Here is a truth, when move past the barriers of self, and do what God is directing, there is joy and freedom from obedience. When there is lack of obedience, there is a drain and we can even be interfering with God is seeking to do. So, the past couple months this one man has had a virus, but there are deeper issues and selfishness and a failure to obey. So I need to take steps of obedience and will see what God will do.

Personal Update: Time to Refocus, Renew, and Move Forward

Okay folks. Admittedly I let myself begin to get mired down and disengaged rather than moving forward. It is easy for me to find plenty of things to “fault” for my retreat into silence. The falling back is quiet the opposite of the varied ways feel led. Perhaps it was feeling and knowing the struggle against reluctance that was approaching following the AACC conference. Hard to really put a finger on it. Now in this all, in spite of my reluctance and difficulty moving forward God still is moving things forward. Connections have been made and relationships renewed and refreshed that will result in getting pieces further in place. Overall, today is a day to begin the personal process of refocusing on what God has before me and on him, renewing what God has already started, and moving forward on that which he has stirred.

Goals:
1: Renew personal growth, study, and time with God (Once start slipping on daily time and filling with other space, it is tough to get back up and restarting.)
2: Refocus on Blog Writing (Start the mental health blog and be consistent with writing for both)
3: Return to facilitating forum discussions. Without my ongoing input the forum has gone very quiet.
4: Get started with book writing project.
5: Follow up on own with credentialing
6: Get private practice website operational
7: Start individual marketing of private practice
8: Build efficiency will current jobs, which also involves moving past reluctance.

Oh and sorry that this blog article is not well thought out examination of these subjects, as it is more just a personal reflection of what I need to do. Each day have choices to make. Move forward or stay in the muck. Now admittedly it is difficult to get up from the muck once got stuck. It takes work but it is a necessary thing to avoid further difficulties. In wrapping this post up, where are you in your own walk and journey? Are there issues you know you need to address but are avoiding? Are you at a “stuck” place? Are there things you know you need to move forward on but facing both external and internal resistance? Are you falling short of your own intentions? Did you face set backs, difficulties, or failed expectations that make it tough to move forward? Hopefully in this blog and other things to come there is seen growth and others are encouraged from the journey of the posts on the blog, on the forum, and anywhere discussions become engaged. Please also if I go quiet for an extended spell again drop me comment or word of encouragement.